Jesus healed Heidi of depression, self-mutilation, and suicidality

Since her childhood, Heidi was tormented with depression and intrusive thoughts (or voices?) of a self-hating and abusive nature. Following her best friend’s suicide in high school, Heidi herself developed a fascination with death and suicide and also a self-mutilation issue. She was only a teenager when she experienced her first of three stays in a psychiatric ward. Afterward, she went through months of outpatient therapy, essentially spending her days at a hospital, and was given numerous antidepressants, none of which helped her; on the contrary, they caused side effects such as more thoughts of suicide and a deadening of feelings. The effectiveness of the therapy was clearly questionable, for in her mid-twenties, she had her first suicide attempt (by overdose).

Of her self-mutilation issue, she said, “I was not satisfied until I was drenched in my own blood from head to toe.” Heidi wondered how could she be so self-destructive when she was full of love for others.

For about a year, she had bulimia and anorexia nervosa. All this time, there were invisible forces, spirits, driving her to these behaviors. When Heidi found Jesus, she finally received from Him what the mental health industry could not provide: deliverance from the spirits oppressing her and complete freedom from all the mental health issues mentioned above – depression, anorexia, bulimia, self-mutilation, self-hatred, suicidality, and preoccupation with death.

Jesus delivered Graham Cottone of bipolar disorder, Asperger’s, depression, medication dependence, and recreational drugs

Graham’s out-of-control behavior started in early childhood. He received a diagnosis of ADHD, then Asperger’s. His parents’ discipline did not work to get him in line. At one point, his mother Lore prayed in tears and despair to God, and God answered her, “Graham is going to get it.”

Around the start of his teenage years, Graham got into marijuana, fire-setting, and cutting. He assaulted his father with a rock, which resulted in the police being called. Graham was consequently jailed. Afterward, Graham continued on a downward spiral; he broke into somebody’s house and ended up spending time between jail and a psych ward for a couple of years. At that point, Lore prayed for him to experience God, to receive peace and joy.

Upon his release, Graham traveled to Oregon. During this trip, he called his parents, crazed, saying he was out of meds and couldn’t get any from the hospital; he ended the call by threatening to hurt someone. Unable to further contact him or get to him, his parents decided to turn the situation over to God.

A bit over half a month passed, and Graham called and shared that he had found God. While traveling through California, he had had a vision of hell. The love and compassion he then felt for others repulsed his travel companions, who rejected him. God showed Graham his future if he was healed or if he wasn’t, and Graham chose God’s way. Per his mother, Graham has experienced an “amazing transformation since then” and is no longer on any drugs and meds, and per his father, “he is walking with the Lord.”

Aaron Buehrer’s faith in God’s Word set him free from panic disorder and depression

When he was maybe thirteen years old, Aaron experienced his first panic attack while at school. There was no known trigger. A phobia of vomiting soon followed.

Aaron would experience panic attacks up to four times a day. At one point, he failed a typing speed test due to one. Afterward, he sought professional help and was diagnosed with depression and clinical anxiety. He received psychiatric medication, which brought relief, especially for the panic attacks.

Since there was a family history of these sort of mental health issues, he was resigned to a future of coping with medicine. Whenever he went off his meds, the panic attacks would return. During an attempt to make it without meds, he ended up in a very dark place, having a sort of existential crisis and enduring “a week of just crippling depression.” Ultimately, he went back on his meds.

Aaron was going to church, and he received prayer for healing, but it never worked. In 2013, Aaron and his wife moved to Houston, Texas. There, they started attending a church that had a strong focus on healing. After one such service on healing, Rachel (his wife) urged him to once again seek healing the Biblical way – “thanking God before you get it” and “believing in your heart that you have already received the healing.”

The panic attacks had previously driven Aaron nearly to the point of suicide, and they would consistently return when he quit his meds. Reluctantly, he decided to give it a try “one last time.” Aaron read the relevant scriptures of instances where people were healed by their faith in Jesus. He thanked God for healing him, worked up his faith such as he had never done before, and quit his meds abruptly, with no weaning period. Time passed, and he was fine.

At the time of this testimony, Aaron recounts, “A month and a half, two months passed, three months passed… and it was gone. It was completely gone. I did not have a single panic attack ever again, sitting here in October of 2017 looking back at November-December of 2014. I’m completely healed.”

Nicole no longer has schizoaffective disorder, nor OCD, thanks to Jesus

Mental illness started tormenting Nicole when she was in her teens, landing her in psych wards on five occasions. She experienced symptoms ranging from episodes of depression (during which she slept a lot), incoherent and rapid thoughts, paranoid delusions of being watched, negative voices, panic attacks, intense stress that led her to literally pull her hair out, and also catatonic spells in which she sat in place for hours, mentally disconnected from time.

Nicole turned to drinking and promiscuity and hopped from relationship to relationship. Eventually, she met a decent man and had a son with him, going off her medications for the pregnancy. Having a son made her start thinking about the state of the world, which in turn led her to think about God. Her relationship fell apart, and she became a single mom. Meanwhile, she had started going to church. She felt comforted and accepted there, as she was dealing the loss of her relationship, resurgence of symptoms, and life changes.

At night, Nicole cried out to Jesus, repenting of her sins and asking for help, and she would get a strange, severe headache. Then, she experienced a visitation from Jesus, and she felt the warmth, peace, and love of His presence. When she looked up, she appeared to see a channel that went upward to God. Jesus communicated with her, letting her know she was cleansed of her sins, even providing a revelation of her true identity and her strengths. She continued to do these fervent prayers, and the strange headache returned. She soon grew to realize that the headache was caused by the demons behind her mental illness and that Jesus was expelling them.

Impatient to be delivered quickly, she decided to try a deliverance ministry, even though Jesus indicated her deliverance needs time. The place she went to ended up being a cult that was placing demons in people instead of taking them out. Afterward, Nicole suffered from new issues of intrusive thoughts, a loss of faith, and increase of doubt.

Eventually, she determined to restore her faith and path forward, concluding that she’s “loved unconditionally no matter what I do” [note: I don’t believe she is referring to the big no-no of intention sin but rather the mistakes and slips we do out of weakness.] She started worshiping with songs, getting into the Bible, and going to church regularly. At the time of her testimony, she was off anti-psychotic medication for more than a couple of years, her previous relationship has been restored, she has had another kid, and her life has become richer in multiple other ways.

God delivered Aaron Kim of insomnia, panic disorder, depression, anxiety, fear, and suicidality

Aaron’s mental health troubles started with insomnia when he took some Korean ginseng. Though he sought professional help, it was to no avail. He was also starting to come down with mild symptoms of panic disorder, depression, and suicidal thoughts. Forty days in, he “just surrendered to God.” God asked him, “What has changed in the last forty days?” Aaron realized the culprit was ginseng, insomnia being a side effect.

Though he stopped the ginseng, his ordeal was far from over. He went on to experience nocturnal panic attacks that would result in him soaking his bed with sweat. Though the panic attacks did not come in the day, his chest throbbed from the nightly torment.

Aaron went to various professionals for help. He obtained six different prescriptions, but “every single one had the opposite effect of what I was hoping for.” For instance, while on sleeping pills, he began talking and doing things while asleep. At the time of his testimony, Aaron is glad the medications did not work because he would have become dependent on them and would have “never found the victory in Jesus.”

Aaron’s condition continued to deteriorate with a worrying/anxiety issue, and the hopelessness he felt brought about severe depression and desperation. A two week stint in a mental hospital brought no relief, and neither did Christian counseling. Aaron became upset with God because he had been a Christian for about a decade and could not understand why this was happening.

Aaron came close to ending his suffering with a shotgun, but thoughts of his family, particularly his two daughters held him back. He was resigned to his condition when his father recommended a book for him to read. The book, “Handbook to Happiness,” outlined how God uses mental suffering as a trial to bring about death to self in a Christian. Hope ignited, Aaron delved into similar books.

Inspired by the teaching of Dr. Neil Anderson, Aaron came to the conclusion that the suicidal thoughts bombarding him were not his own but rather demons. When he rebuked them to leave in the name of Jesus, they abruptly stopped – for good, never to return.

Afterward, Aaron became serious about putting on the full armor of God and studying spiritual warfare. Aaron attributes his ultimate healing to Scripture verses, such as Isaiah 41:10, 1 Peter 5:6, and especially 2 Corinthians 12:9, Romans 8:28, and Galatians 2:20. Having confessed to God that his situation was too much for him, he decided to rest in God and turn his situation over to God to handle instead. While being tormented at night, he meditated on the aforementioned verses, trusting God that “His grace will sustain” him and “He’s going to use all of that suffering for my good, so what is there to be scared of?”

In three months’ time, trusting in God’s promises accomplished for Aaron what inpatient treatment, prescription meds, cognitive-behavioral therapy, and doctors could not: complete freedom from his mental health issues.

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